Dany Colorado

Planks

2012-02-11T20:56:00.001-07:00

These are my new skis. I was on them yesterday and it was awesome. I felt like I was turning much better and they were smooth. The powderiness didn't bother me, which sometimes it did on my old skis. I am not a great skiier, but I figure that if I can come off the mountain saying it was the best day skiing ever, then I'm doing what I should.

I am just hanging around the house and watching the X Files. I was stoked to see that all 9 seasons are on Netflix instant. I used to watch that show all the time in high school and I can remember everything about the episodes I've watched so far. Memento Mori and The Field Where I Died are mu favorite episodes I think. Season 4 was a good one. Postmodern Prometheus will always be what I think of when I hear Cher's "Walking in Memphis."

Alrighty then. I think it is time for the hard partying Saturday night girl to vacuum! Adios, yall.

PS: Then Walking in Memphis brings me to this:

Old Apartments. . . .

2012-02-05T22:08:00.000-07:00

I used to love Barenaked Ladies. I haven't listened to them recently. This is one of my favorites from the "old days." I'm thinking I may post some music on each blog, just for fun.

I used to really enjoy music and then a weird series of events have left me somewhat music-less the last few years. No radio at work, radio in car died, no TV and boom. . . .no exposure to music. Pandora has helped with this... I still need more though.

Anywho, here is something fun for the day. . .

If I had a Million Dollars

Happy week!

Weekend End

2012-02-05T14:01:00.000-07:00

I love breakfast. This is what I had this morning....at 12:15pm. I guess it would count as brunch.

This has been a long and strange weekend. I am going to end it by heading to Betsy's house to eat some warm arty dip and lasagna while watching "The Big Game."

Something I am not digging so much is spiders. I mean, I don't mind spiders, but there are an awful lot of them hanging out in the basement. Here are a few pics of the ones that caught my eye this morning while cleaning. Happy they aren't black widows, but still creepy as fuck. I remember reading once a saying about it being bad luck to kill a spider in a new house.....but I have put an end to a few here. They are good at keeping the other pests at bay, but something I just can't help myself.

Remorse

2012-02-03T19:44:00.000-07:00

I really fucked up last night. I am just not very proud of my behavior and all I can say is that I am lucky to have such a wonderful husband who loves me and STILL loves me today.

I really need to work on myself.

Looks lived in, no?

2012-01-31T20:45:00.001-07:00

These are pics up upstairs at the cabin. There will be more to come. LOVE the fireplace and where we are living. More to come for sure. . . . Old Cardiff Road, the pipes the pipes are calling. . . . lol. Yup. Night.

Mmm, mmm, bueno

2012-01-31T20:03:00.000-07:00

I made toasted turkey caprese sandwiches for dinner. They were really really good too! I like food, dammit.

Tomorrow is volleyball day. From what I understand we're playing the sand bagger team that is always there...we'll give it our best and have some fun and if, IF we win, I'm told we'll get beer and pizza :) Here's hoping.

Weekends o' Fun

2012-01-29T20:08:00.001-07:00

Weekends are the shit. They go so quickly though. I have been at the house watching ghosty shit, cleaning and playing up at Sunlight. I have to go to work tomorrow at 7:30am and I am not looking forward to that at all. . . I can barely make it to work at 8am... we'll get it worked out I suppose.

Today was a good day and in some ways I really just want to work up at Sunlight and have a fun as shit job. . . my job is good and I like it, but it isn't FUN. I need more fun in my life I think.

Anywho, I have been home and playing with my Uke and watching shit that doesn't matter. I like it. Yeah, I'mma gonna go now and prepare for tomorrow by sleeping or something.

Yahoo and shit

2012-01-26T23:10:00.000-07:00

So, today was a really god awful day. Work was just crazy and stressful, I flipped out a bit and just wanted it to end and it felt like it wouldn't. It did, and I booked it to the store and the LQ.

I came home and went to work making enchiladas and drinking red beers. I've made a fire, I've enjoyed watching the snow fall and eating dinner and finding out we are getting the entire deposit back on the old apartment which means I will be getting new skis AND new tires for my car! I am watching Project Runway All Stars, which I'm stoked about. . .

All in all, this day had ended really well!

Three Weeks

2012-01-20T21:00:00.001-07:00

Three weeks in with not smoking and feeling pretty fine. I really just went for it and haven't had any issues. I went cold turkey and it has been okay. There have been a few days that I was really struggling but I got through it without smoking and that is good.

Things at the cabin are good. Just finished paying off the stupid pet deposit, so we're finally really all in :) I will post some pics once I get everything unpacked and arranged. We did get some firewood today and I've got one going in the fireplace. Linden is out working at the liquor store and I'm gonna kick back and read the Girl Who Played With Fire.

Tomorrow I am working at Sunlight. There is a race and Tele festival so I'm heading up to help out. I don't really want to (right now) but know that it will get fine once I actually get there.

Things at my real job are okay. I am digging it still and really like it, but have a feeling that things are going to get a little kooky fairly soon. This is not something I am looking forward to, but there isn't anything I can do to change it. I'll just need to get through it.

What's the word?

2012-01-10T21:20:00.003-07:00

I believe it is bird.

Soundses.

2012-01-07T21:34:00.000-07:00

Purple Haze

I remember finding my parents old records and loving Jimi Hendrix. Oddly enough it reminds me of playing basketball in high school and the long road trips filled with music on the bus. Also, it reminds me of an infatuation I had with a young man who I think should have been born in a Jimi/Janice era.

Sometimes I feel like my life soundtrack is a few decades older than I am. And really, I'm okay with that.

Mercedes Benz

An older guy at work asked me the other day of I knew who Jefferson Airplane was. I made me laugh. I sang White Rabbit the rest of the day at work. TOJ was surprised I knew the band...and it just reminded me of my up bringing with my fun parents and the music that I've loved all my life. And also,

sit thought the ad, it is worth it.

Movin' Along

2012-01-07T19:51:00.000-07:00

It finally snowed today. . . but today sucked a bit in a stupid way. My car is no bueno on snow and I slid all over the place and it scared the shit out of me, then I slipped and fell down in a parking lot and my loverly dog Scratch shit in my car. Other than that, it was a good day :) I unpacked some stuff, got my cat into some soft claws without problems and shoveled snow.

I have been watching a lot of Ghost Lab lately, and My Ghost Story. I like that kinda shit.

Tomorrow I am going to ski and hope for more snow on Wednesday as expected. Linden is working, so I'm spending my time watching football and GL all at the same time as drinking beer :) Life feels pretty damn good right now. I like it.

With that, adios.

Day two

2012-01-02T13:04:00.000-07:00

I am on day two of not smoking. I feel pretty good and hope to keep it up. I'm waiting for my paycheck so that I can go get nicotine replacement aids. I'm gonna do this, dammit. I'm stronger than those stupid little sticks. I started smoking when I was a kid. I remember taking one and sneaking down the alley behind a shed with Amy Schilz and smoking for the first time.

Since then I've always smoked. In college I was smoking much more, maybe one to two packs a day. Currently I was smoking around 5 cigarettes a day or so. Sometimes more and sometimes less. I hope that LC jumps back on the bandwagon. . . it will just make this an easier task.

2012

2011-12-31T23:59:00.000-07:00

I'm kicking it at home, rum and coke in hand, at 11:39 on NYE. Linden is working at Turtles, a liquor store. He's picked up a third job and works his ass off. He'll get off at midnight, come home and hang a bit and then go to work at the mountain at 8am. I'm watching Lady Gaga on Dick Clark's New Year Rockin' Eve. Good times.

Today was the last day of our tenancy at Pitkin Ave. Seven years is over! Really crazy to think we were there for that long. I wonder how long we'll be here. I hope it is even longer. It is such a cool little place. We have squirrels running all of the place driving the dogs crazy and making me laugh. The river is heard constantly and I think it is helping me sleep at night. I dig it.

I'm going to quit smoking. I'll be using nicotine lozenges to ween off the cigs. I'm also going to be on a rec volleyball team. That will start on January 11th. As always, I need to buy knee pads. I buy them each year I'm on a team and then they disappear. In all these boxes I may have a pair, but I don't know if I'll find them by the time the league starts. I really do dig volleyball, even if I'm not that great. It will be fun, it is with a guy from work and some of his friends. Should be nice getting to know some new people too.

Looking forward to the new year, though really its all the same, isn't it?

I have had the last 3 days off, and I don't work again until Tuesday. I would have had a 4 day weekend anyway, but the provider I work with was off Thursday and they asked if I wanted to take the day too since there were extra people working. I jumped on it and took advantage to get shit moved. I thought today was Sunday and was confused as to why there was college football on and not NFL. Life is hard when you don't know what day it is. Tomorrow I'll work on unpacking more stuff and taking care of other household things. FUN!

Anywho, I guess I'll wrap up this incredibly banal blog and finish my drink and ring in the new year.

Happy 2012, people.

Thursday's a bitch

2011-12-15T16:45:00.000-07:00

At least this one is :(

Work was fine but I discovered that someone has gained access to my debit card info and tried to purchase $500+ dollars worth of stuff from Wal-Mart.com. Luckily my bank caught it and put a hold on the purchases and my card, but it really ruined my day. Then some other stupid money stuff popped up, but hey, that's what the holidays are for, right?

Blarg. Now I am home and wanting to move stuff but my husband is sleeping.

I wish I were asleep.

Anywho, fuck it.

And it begins

2011-12-03T15:08:00.001-07:00

I started packing today....you know, putting things into boxes. Blarg. Thankfully we have time to do it but I'm over it already. I hate moving and honestly, this is why we've been here for 7 years. Yesterday we did stop by the cabin to check on some stuff the previous tenant, Beth, was going to leave if we wanted. It made me excited to see it again and know that is less than two weeks we'll be moving in!

I went skiing yesterday for the first time this year. It was good. Not the greatest snow but still a lot of fun. Hoping Mother Nature is holding out for a HUGE storm soon.

Well, I need to get back at the packing and sorting out of shit.

Talk to you later.

Hollerdays

2011-11-27T14:39:00.001-07:00

Thanksgiving was good. We went to the folks house in Greeley-ish and ate and drank and were merry, dammit. I was glad to go and me and hubs had a good time.

My cat, however, is not having a good time. He has a UTI and I need to get him to the vet tomorrow as early as I can. He is still peeing so there isn't a blockage. I'm pushing fluids (ie tuna water) and hoping he'll be okay until tomorrow. He is acting fairly normal, but you can see that he is uncomfortable and has piddled in some inappropriate places. This is the second one he has had in a year. I think some major dietary changes are coming for little Larry Joe. He'll probably like it but it will be harder on my pocketbook.

Linden and the black dog are skiing Willies today and me and the red dog are cleaning house and preparing for a walk to Betsy's for some football fun time.

This is pretty much all that is going on, yeah for me.

Blurry

2011-11-19T16:23:00.000-07:00

My head hurts. I think it is due to wearing my crappy old glasses that are scratched and 4 years past their prescription prime. I had to throw out my last pair of contacts due to the pinkeye adventure. Not cool.

Other than that things are just dandy. My house is a mess due to me tearing through stuff and just letting it sit around on the floor afterwards. Mostly this is just in the bike room, which will be the biggest pain to pack up. Everything else should be pretty straight forward.

I have baked some cookies today and am making tortilla soup for dinner. It will be the bomb.

I was going to practice some ukulele and couldn't find my book but just looked down and it is right by my foot, so off to tinker with that I go! Adios.

Day off

2011-11-16T15:11:00.000-07:00

So I am on second day of quarantine. It was pretty nice actually. I got to sleep in and slept better last night than I had in a long long time. Then I got up and did some breakfast, some cleaning and going though stuff, a workout and now here I am waiting for some laundry to dry and finish washing.

It is a bit overwhelming going through all of our stuff. I'm taking it slow right now and just getting an idea of what all we'll move and what we'll take to consignment shops or the the trash. Yeesh. We have some time though, so that is okay. Slowly but surly. That will win the move!

YUUUSSSS.

2011-11-15T10:28:00.001-07:00

Well, the lease is signed and the deposit paid! We're moving, people! I am pretty damn excited about the whole thing, to be honest! Yay! The only thing I'm sad about is I never did take the four season pictures I wanted of the linden tree out front. I guess I'll need to do this project at the new place!

On the other side of fun-happy-coin is that I have pinkeye and am home for two days so that I don't infect people with my conjunctivitis. :( Suck. I have to put goop in my eyes and lay around. It doesn't look anything like the illustration above, but I did awake to crusty eyes. . .

I guess I'll take this time to clean stuff and go through 7 years worth of stuff and get some trash removed and consignment shop goods together.

Anywho, whoop whoop for me.
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Noun: a small simple dwelling; hut

2011-11-13T16:07:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow, if all goes as planned, Linden and I should secure a lease on this little cabin pictured above. We went and checked it out again on Friday to make sure we really wanted it and, yup, we do. We were approved by the property management company and I'll call them Monday to see when I can get them a deposit and sign the lease.

I am muy excited.

Today, though I have started a cursory clean-up mission of the bathroom and hall closet. It sort of overwhelmed me already. We have a lot of shit. I threw out three bags of shit and old pictures and letters and things that I took from my parents when they moved: report cards and artwork from my elementary school days. I kept some stuff but got rid of quite a bit as well.

The cabin is a little smaller than what we are in now and it doesn't have the same amount of closets or storage space, though there is a room downstairs where the bikes (all 8 of them) can go. Linden will have his own little work room and I am hoping the downstairs sun room will by my little area for painting and writing and whatnot.

It is exciting but stressful as well. I am thinking we'll have two weeks where we'll have both places under rent so it should be nice and easy moving from one place to the other. . . if only it weren't winter. Moving in the snow sucks!

Anywho, that is my news for the day! Adios.

Indy kinda shit

2011-11-13T00:54:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I think that if I were in a situation, like some sci-fi shit, and was brought in front of a civilization and had to sing a song of me people, I'd sing Seeker by the Who.

Is that weird?

Take your wings outside, you can't fly in here.

2011-11-11T01:25:00.000-07:00

Weird. That is what this week has been. I have been stressed out and emotional. Not normal for me. At least, not lately.

I think it is brought on my my attempt to find a new place to live. I sent in application for a cabin that we put "dibs" on earlier this year.

The thing is, I want it, but I'm worried as well. And I hate moving. The worry comes from knowing it is a cold place that requires a lot of work and effort to keep warm in the winter. I think I can deal with this okay, but I am sort of a pussy. Otherwise, this place is a wonder. The summers and spring/fall will be great. It is worth it to me to be out of the realm of neighbor fuckdom. . . . It is smaller than what we have now, but the happiest I've been was the place up Three Mile and this is what it reminds me of.

In all honesty though, I am not the sort that would be undone by a stressor like this. Several people are telling me it is because I am pregnant. Fuck them too. I try really hard not to get pregnant and honestly don't know what I would do if I did get prego. Probably have the coolest kid ever, but dammit, I don't want to.
I did a hcg test just to make sure and BOOM! Not carrying any alien babies. . . .

So now I am listening to music (Alkaline Trio/Simon and Garfunkle?) on my ipod while my love slumbers and I go between tears and weirdom while cruising the interwebs.

Lets just hope tomorrow is better.

Alergias

2011-11-02T11:06:00.000-06:00

So, I am allergic to the antibiotics that I've been taking. Awoke to a nice little outbreak of hives. I am at home now. I don't necessarily feel horrible, but everyone was looking at me funny, and I am a bit itchy/tingly and tired.

From bug bites to hives. I'm over the past two weeks!

Seeing a spider is nothing. It becomes a problem when it disappears.

2011-10-29T20:14:00.003-06:00

UPDATE: So here is my face this morning. I am pretty pleased it doesn't look worse or have more swelling. I'll be the bumpiest butterfly at work tomorrow.

I've been having the spider bite issues again. I fucking hate it and don't know what the hell I am supposed to do. Two weeks ago two bites on my arm, a week later three bites on my legs. I started sleeping in clothes (which sucks) and last night I figured I hadn't been bitten recently and I was hot so I was gonna "get in the nude". THEN I feel this fucking bite on my stomach. I went and slept on the couch.

This morning I got up and tore my room apart and cleaned the hell out of everything, Raided the closet and saw one single tiny spider which I quickly dispatched.

Tonight I feel my face and BOOM! Notice a bite above my eye lid. Now I'm curious about the red dot under my eye which I thought was a zit. Took photos to post and while downloading them noticed that there is also a red mark directly to the right of my eye....

I was planning on being a very simple butterfly for Halloween, but it could be I make an appearance as Quasimodo. My reaction to these bites is progressively worse and at my doctor appointment last week (I'm on antibiotics to fight off infection) I was told that allergic reactions can get worse. . . So I might just be a half blind bumpy mess by morning (also why I took the photo. I want to see how this progresses.) The swelling can be quite impressive with some of the bites I've gotten. :(

I know this sounds gross. I think it sounds gross too, but I really am at my wits end. Linden doesn't get bitten, just me. I never see the spider, I never feel anything until I've got a large welt. . . I've looked all over the house for webs and nests. I've found nothing. I've also looked for evidence of bedbugs or weevils or ear wigs or death beetles, something and have found NOTHING.

It almost feels like some sort of fucked up haunting: I'm getting injured by something I can't see and I don't know how to deal with it.

GRRRAAAAAA!!!!!!

Anywho, I'll keep you posted on this uber attractive and normal blog topic.

On a side note: Linden went to a costume party tonight in my wings. Enjoy.

The dog may be wonderful prose, but only the cat is poetry

2011-10-27T23:57:00.001-06:00

my cat has been obssessivly smelling my hand ffor ten minutes...i'm typing one handed due to this development. it tickles in a certain dainty cat way and I don't understand what he is after. Thinking it may be some small fish tank rocks (straight out of the bag) i handled then painted white for my halloween costume, but then he seems just as interested in my face and i haven't face-handled any rocks. Maybe lotion, or other cats previously petted in the night?

I can't imagine having a sense of smell so damn strong you can comb a palm for 20 minutes and still be interested. What does he find there, in the fine crevice of my palm print?

Course, I watch this same creature turn down tuna for lettuce and knock any coin off a table with gusto for no reason....and he shits in a box full of sand so I'd say my understanding of him is fairly slim.

Good fences....

2011-10-20T23:43:00.003-06:00

After my last post I went to bed early. Like 10 pm early. Only, only, the neighbors dog barked intermittently for 3 hours or so until someone downstairs came home. Then the dogs barked some more and ran around like hellions below. I would have complained but knew there was no one to complain to and once she got there, it quieted down.

The next night was good then Tuesday came with thumpy bad music for about 6 hours. I was pissy and annoyed but Linden made me feel like a bitchy old lady so it was dealt with. Eventually I did slam my foot to the floor several, several times and the volume went down (and up a few times) and I was able to go to sleep.

Last night I went to bed 'round midnight and awoke an hour or so later to that thumpy fucking music. I tried to rationalize and figure they're young and blah blah blah. No big deal...but to me who is a touchy sleeper, this FUCKING noise night after night has to end ( loud enough I knew they listened, through the floor, to Thriller.) NOT to mention there are five apartments here and one sharing walls with said offenders in which elementary school children sleep.

I got dressed and went and knocked and told them to turn it down, it was loud was loud the night before and dammit I have to work tomorrow. "Sorry" she said, "I had no idea" and her dogs ran out the door and she yelled and I stomped off to my rooms.

I got back and felt my heart thumping and was riled up. Pissed, and almost felt bad like I'd done something wrong. BUT I was able to go to sleep and get to work at 7:30 no problem.

I thought about it a lot today and almost felt guilty but still happy I'd let them know, aside from foot stomps on floor, that what was going on wasn't okay in our wee little community (self righteous?). I considered, on my drive home, on if I saw her should I apologize, and I thought I might. Not for being mad but for how I approached it. When I got home she was outside. By the time I got out of the car, she wasn't.

And dammit, that is okay. I look forward to the silence this may bring.I've had issues with neighbors in the past and miss my Kip and Erin, even if they are boisterous Southerners who talk over one another occasionally. They are nice and quiet and respectful. Good fences make good neighbors, and so do some rules and bounties, dammit. We aren't always friends, but partners in domicile.

And also, I got bitten yesterday by three spiders. I had some respite from the shit below and spider bites, but when the good neighbors moved so did the good arachnids. . . .time is cyclical they say.

Blah!

2011-10-16T20:03:00.002-06:00

Today marks the end of my 4 day weekend. It will be hard going back to work after so much fun!

LC and I went for a bike ride today and though it wasn't what we planned, I had a good time. I am tired now and ready to go to bed whenever the time is right.

I must say that I think I live in one of the most beautiful places ever. The colors were amazing today and I am just lucky to be here!

Happy week, people!

I didn't take this photo.....but you get the gist.

Overindulged

2011-10-14T21:13:00.001-06:00

I am so tired and so full of food. Yesterday was Linden and my 10th anniversary. We've been married for 4 as well. It was a good day. We both took a day off from work and slept in and ate breakfast. We then went on a small bike ride and drank some beer then went to the pool and soaked in hot water for a few hours. We then went to dinner and drinks, then home, then to the bar.

We drank too much and spent too much monies. I also left a note on the neighbors door about their dog. I had to re-write it like 10 times because I was intoxicated and didn't want to sound like an asshole or have the note look like a 3 year old wrote it. . .

Today I was in a robe for the majority of it. I did get dressed to take the dogs out, but then reverted to robe-life.

Tonight was our friends, Kip and Erin's 5 year anniversary, so we went out to eat and again, spent way too much money. But it was worth it.

I got Linden a bike stand for our big day and he got me a new ski jacket! It was good and we're still quite in love with one another.

Awe me gods

2011-10-01T12:55:00.000-06:00
Blogger came out with some new layout options. I messed around a bit and then couldn't log out or get to the dash board. I'm safely back to my original layout but may fool around a little more soon. We shall see.

Today is a beautiful Saturday, but it looks like the clouds are mounting and it may rain. I'd like to ride my bike to Carbondale and surprise Linden at work, but I don't know. We'll see if it happens.

Last night was a nice night with drinks and Moe's Original BBQ. I'd rather do those sorts of things that the insurance call I need to make to correct something on our policy or roll over my damn IRA to the new 403(b) at work. . . . I'm a lazy asshole. Yesterday I just laid around on the air mattress watching Ghost Adventures.

The bout went off really well last week. I was under the impression that I'd just be adding some color to the announcing, but the guy they got to do it didn't know the game. D and I did most of the announcing and it was a but chaotic, but it was a lot of fun. It was cool seeing how the girls skating has improved. I'd like to get back into it but we shall see. If nothing else, I will do announcing if they'll let me. Practices are on hold since the ice rink will be ice soon and the rental that was arranged last year has fallen through :(

Here is a photo I took at the Durango Roller Girls bout earlier in September.

I am working on getting my shit together. I've gained at least 12 lbs. since last year and I am drinking too much beer and not eating enough veggies and things that are good for me. It is tough getting that shit under control and KEEPing it in control.

Okay, enough nonsense rambly. More to come later.

Inaugural Bout

2011-09-23T11:05:00.000-06:00
So the RFRD is having their first bout this weekend. I'm not skating but they have asked me to be one of the announcers, so that is cool. I'm excited to watch them skate and be a part of the action. Now, what to wear?
I've been thinking of derby names a lot too. I know I won't be skating any time soon, but it is a fun past time.

Here's what I've got:
Rabid Rabbit
Queen of Banshee-ba
Joan of Snark
Punch Monkey

I'm sure there will be more.

Yesterday the computers went down for a few hours and it was like being in the dark ages again. It went pretty smoothly but it was hard not having a patients entire chart there to review. Computers are evil and will lead to a new Dark Age. I am sure of it.

Que Surrah, Sarah?

2011-09-16T11:21:00.000-06:00

I like that I like this picture, and it reminds me so much of this picture: Uma Thurman in the Adventures of Baron Von Munchausen.

Silly Birth of Venus.

Anywho, life is moving right along. Labor Day hit and BOOM, summer was officially over and the weather is reflecting that perfectly. It has been cold and rainy and I'm not diggin' it too much. I am trying to just accept it and get on with winter and ski preparedness. . . I'm thinking that I won't have to work for my Sunlight pass this year which will be sweet, and with Friday thru Sundays off, I'm good to go!

Larry did in deed get the mouse last weekend so that is good. I think he enjoyed the hunt and got to be a."real" cat for a bit. When Betsy brought the dogs back Larry was proudly displaying the deceased beast.

For now, I'll away to shower and get on with this cool Friday. Auf wiedersehen.

Mouse in the house

2011-09-09T00:40:00.001-06:00
Linden and I are preparing for a weekend away and as I sit here I notice the cat being cat like. Stalking.

We've got a mouse in the house.

This is not unusual really. We've had mice before. Never here in this apartment in the past 7 years, but we lived in a space were we were catching 2-3 a night.

"We've got a mouse."

"What the fuck is the cat doing?"

"Hunting."

"Good."

I had him in my sights and a fishnet in hand, but the cat and dog and fish net did no good. He eluded us.

I now have the door closed in an attempt to keep him here, though the gap under the door isn't helping. Our absence for the next few days won't help either.

Hopefully Larry Joe, the 15lb pussy, will put and end to him or at least make him move on from 815 Our Street.

Super happy fun times

2011-09-04T12:14:00.000-06:00

Another recent project. I'm having fun with it so that is good, right?

Today we're taking the dogs out for a hike up a trail I've not been to. Should be a good time. It is a beautiful day and I'm happy to have tomorrow off as well :)

2011-09-02T11:39:00.000-06:00

This is my latest project, just for fun and functionality.

I am on day one of a 4 day weekend. Sadly the Linden will be working for 2 of those days, but it will be nice having time together to play on Sunday and Monday.

I plan on doing a little more painting and some sewing of some projects. I need to get the dogs out for some action and do some cleaning and bike riding. It will be wonderful.

The nights and mornings are quite cool nowadays, and though it is still far from us, I feel Autumn creeping up. It makes me sad. Autumn I mean. It starts out pretty and then the decay and brown get to me. Snow is the only thing that makes it better.

This is all for now. Until next time, adios.

Project Eat Shit

2011-08-13T11:20:00.000-06:00
I think it is finally over! The past two weeks I'd fallen off my bike and my left knee took the brunt of it all....well, so did my sternum.

This is how we started out:

Then I ate some shit and took a handlebar to the sternum...
The next week I fell again bruising up the rest of my leg. This it two weeks post Project Eat Shit.

Hoping it is all over with :) I felt pretty gnarly and fell doing really easy things, but I am a pretty bad bicyclist, especially when coming down rocky declines :(

Today is the company fun time picnic at Two Rivers Park. BBQ and pot luck and people I work with drinking booze. Should be fun and I'm going to work really hard not to be that girl who gets shit faced and makes a scene everyone will remember and gets mentioned at every faculty function. I will be taking the super soaker though, so it should be a good time.

Had a work conundrum yesterday and chose to do something for myself and my supervisor assured me that it was OK to do so. I felt guilty at first but now I'm feeling okay about it and look forward to starting my Fri-Sat- Sunday's off again next week.

I really do like my job, though I don't understand how I can draw blood, and deal with kids puking and bodily functions of others but watching a kid drink bubbly bath water on AFV last nigh nearly made me puke...

I am astounded at how quickly summer is flying by and that soon I'll be prepping for ski season. . .hoping to get a spouse pass instead of having to host this year. Go Linden, go!
For now, that is all the update you're going to get. Happy Saturday!

Summers

2011-07-27T21:43:00.001-06:00
Hello there, stranger. Things are well in this little life o' mine. Summer is flying by as normal. Linden is home and had a great trip. He got to Seattle and hopped a train as his rack broke. He is back working and I've the med assisting going. I really like my job.

I had my 90 day review and it was VERY good. I've also been training a new MA which is cool. I like that they trust me enough to do it this early in. Working with patients is fun and I try to make the experience more positive/fun if possible. I keep my co-workers laughing and yeah - it is fun.

Been to some bike polo events and full moon cruisers. No camping or races this year. Hope to get to the family reunion coming up and also over to Gunnison for a Hartmans Rock bike/camp weekend before it starts getting cold there. Tomorrow I'm taking the bike out to Hanging Lake and hiking up. . . summer days are rad.

Still playing with my uke and liking it quite a bit. Learning chords and just strumming along. Got some peeling calluses too. Um, yeah. This is it. Really nice life.

Adios.

BlaRog

2011-07-04T01:33:00.000-06:00
Oy. So LC has been gone for a week and hit the road on his bike yesterday. He's gone about 150 miles in is almost to Forks, of Twilight fame. He is doing well, though is tired but sounds in good spirits and I can't wait until he's back home.

I am lonely and miss him terribly. I got hit with some sort of GI issue and called in to work Wed and Thursday. Still feeling a little iffy and have a pain in my left leg that I have determined, through extensive Internet research (which I discourage patients from doing), is a Deep Vein Thrombosis. That or a Superficial Thrombophlebitis. I'm going to have it checked out on Monday. I don't want to have a Pulmonary embolism. All joking aside (was I joking?), I am concerned a bit about what it may be and want to have it looked at.

I have purchased a new vacuum since the old one did NOT suck as it should, and I also purchased a Jumping Flea and have been tinkering around with it quite a bit. Got the instrument,book and tuner at a reasonable price and have been distracting myself through loneliness and illness enough with it to rationalize the cost. Plus, it is just kinda cool. My small hands have an easier time with it and my small brain can deal with 4 strings more easily than 6. Chords aren't such a bitch when there is less space to cover.

I've got down Mary Had a Little Lamb and Shortnin' Bread. I've also started moving through some simple strum patterns and chords. I am optimistic. I told LC that when he returns, we'll be a guitar/uke duet and tour the country on bicycles with our award winning show.

All in all July has been sort of rough so far, but I am looking forward to some chores tomorrow then BBQ with the neighbors and some fireworks. . . Happy 4th, y'all!

June 26

2011-06-26T22:53:00.000-06:00
Let's see. Linden left for his trip on friday. His train was late due to some accident in NV with the train and a semi. Uber happy he didn't leave on Thursday. We spent the day together and got some extra time with one another due to the delay. It was nice spending time with him. He will be in WA now and with his mom on the way to Raymond, where he'll spend a few days before getting on his bike. I'm nervous but confident and trying not to be worried that he is on his own for 1,700 miles. If anyone can do it, it is my husband.

Since he left I've spent time at the house and with some friends. Mostly just watching Bones and Paranormal State of Netflix, writing and doodling a bit.

Tomorrow is Monday, which means work, and that is okay :) More later. I'm tired.

Solstice

2011-06-21T23:03:00.000-06:00
Today was the longest day. Sort of felt like it too.

Plenty in the works. LC is going to leave Friday for his trip. Train to WA to see Mama C and then a LONG bike ride back to Colorado. Looking at quite an adventure he is. I'm looking at a lot of alone time.

I'm feeling bitter as we just got into an argument, but that doesn't really matter.

Work is going good and I am planning on sewing on my "new" 239 Singer machine I purchased a few weeks ago at a garage sale. I'm also thinking of taking up the Ukulele. I think the size would better cope with my hands   - or the other way around.

It was Father's Day and today is my Pop's 61st. Tomorrow is LC's 31st.

Time sure does fly, don't it?

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Dark day

2011-06-03T13:05:00.000-06:00
I got word this morning that a friend killed himself. It was a compete surpise, I suppose these things usually are. Today I've just been wandering around thinking about how beautful the day is and how much I love life and all the things I want to do...and how it is all such a waste and blessing.

Three day weekend starts today and I'm choring it up and being productive.

That is all I've got.

piss'ed off

2011-05-13T11:06:00.000-06:00
Finished a blog and it was here. Blogger did some maintenance and BOOM. Gone. The saddest thing is it was pretty good blog for me. . . . meaningful and shit.

Whatevs.

Death is a lapse of memory in the making

2011-05-11T22:29:00.000-06:00
At least that is what my tattoo says. I think idea is appealing to me and hearkens back to my big X Files days:

I too have spent a life the sages' way,
And tread once more familiar paths. Perchance
I perished in an arrogant self-reliance
Ages ago; and in that act, a prayer
For one more chance went up so earnest, so
Instinct with better light let in by death,
That life was blotted out—not so completely
But scattered wrecks enough of it remain,
Dim memories, as now, when once more seems
The goal in sight again...

Of course the text comes from an older and greater place than the X Files, but this is where I first heard it and truly, that was the place my thoughts and ideas on life, death and reincarnation began. (It is amazing how much the entertainment industry has shaped me.)

But when I am boldly and plainly brought before the topic of death I fall to pieces, despite my belief (or is it hope) that we come back to some sort of life and those we love.

A few weeks ago we had an in-service at work. A hospice had some folks come talk to us. They told us about their experiences walking people through the dying process and the teaching, joy and sadness that come from it - the solace they lend to those in the last moments of their lives. Despite the fact we work in the medical field and deal with death (or the delay of it) on some level, we got teary and emotional. I held it in during the discussion, but once I left the lunch area and walked around, a nurse noted my distress and said, "they do good things."

I choked in my sentence of ,"what they do is beautiful" and had to receive a hug and then scramble to find an open bathroom. Eyes followed me and people wondered why was so upset.

The act of dying scares me. This is irrational since I think there is something else out there, since I know it isn't really the end. But then again, I don't know what I know. I just hope.

Dying is apart of life, but I have no control of it or even control of what I feel about it. I almost said "think" about it, but I know what I think...my emotions just take a less rational turn. It is tragic, the end of something big, no matter what comes afterwards. It is selfish since the dead don't know or care.

I'm being faced with death in a different way nowadays. I roomed a patient who crashed and was taken swiftly from the facility to the hospital. I fear I missed something during her intake that could have helped her. I don't know if she lived or not.

Last week I watched an old man go through a procedure he surely didn't want to go through. I stood on watching while the nurses worked and the doc and family discussed him like he wasn' there. My main focus was on his toenails, which were too long and gnarled and I wondered how he fit into his shoes.

This man has time left, but what is the quality of that time if he, or no one else, care enough to make sure his feet are in walking condition? If life and the care of it fall to the wayside what is the point? Then they told him he had to stop drinking coffee. Without that, what is the point? The little joys and pleasures in life, whether they come down to coffee or the ability to walk to the crapper, are what make life worth living.

I guess I just hope my tattoo and Frank the French Canadian are right: that death is a lapse of memory in the making and once all the pain and degrading horror of it are over, you can start again.

Polishing what was inside

2011-04-30T12:32:00.001-06:00
BAM! Today is day two of my first of many three day weekends. Love it. Today I plan on going to the store and shopping, most specifically for Eggs Benedict fixins. I've never made it so it will be an adventure for sure.

Then I'm thinking some sort of a workout and house cleaning. I must admit I've been pretty pissed off about the weather as of late. For the past two weeks or so there has been no warmth and no dryness. Plenty cold and wet and that dog won't hunt, Monsignor.

This cracked me up though, so everything is alright.

PS.
We've got bird-age on the porch already! A pair of house finches are getting ready to start a brood. It feels earlier than last year. . .

Spring clean

2011-04-17T09:09:00.001-06:00
Yes. Very nice longish weekend. There were 7 extra MAs at work on Friday so they said if we wanted to use PTO to take time off we could. I had 6 hours accumulated so I worked until noon and took the rest of the day off. My trainer kinda gave me crap for it, but I feel that if they didn't want me to have that option they shouldn't have placed me on the list of people who could do that. I wasn't really just standing around, but there were four of us doing the same thing so I kinda really was. . . so a nice warm Friday afternoon was rad.

Tomorrow I go to work and then have Tuesday off. Not a bad set up at all! Soon I'll be moving to Friday-Sunday off which will be uber cool.

I did get a nice surprise yesterday though. A woman whom I worked with at CPM over a year ago called me out of the blue and told me she had a job opportunity for me. I was touched that she thought of me and gave me a call. The job is administrative and I don't think I'm interested at all, but it was just neat that she remembered me and would want to give me a hand in getting a position. She also said that she saw my name in the paper (I wrote a letter to the editor) and it reminded her of what a good worker I was. I'll have to call her and thank her.

Was excited to hear they are making a One for the Money movie from Janet Evanovitch's book, but was upset that Kathrine Heigl will be playing Stephanie Plum. It just doesn't feel right. Debbie Reynolds is also in the movie as Grandma Mazur. ?.

Anywho, I think I'll read for a bit and try to finish the "cleaning" job started yesterday. Mostly I just moved stuff from one spot to another.

Adios.

Oh, PS:
Watched Bag It and have vowed to use as little plastic as possible. This is much harder than you would expect.
The thing in the movie that got me the most was when they showed the dead albatross and turtles which had plastic in their stomachs..........I don't want to be a part of that.

BUT, we're taking steps in the right direction, though twice now I have forgotten to take my own bags to the store. But I rode my bike so I did one part right. Anywho, evaluate your plastic consumption maybe?

The sea is just a wetter version of the sky

2011-04-12T11:53:00.002-06:00

Me, figuring.
Yay for days off! Today Imma gonna ride my bike a bit and take Scratch on a run beside me. I'm also gonna go to the Gear Exchange and change the tube on my Pyre. Also, Maeve will go for a nice walk. Then I'm thinking some episodes of Bones on Netflix.

Listening to a little Regina and I like it. . . she is a weirdo, but I like that about her. I like weirdos because they are of my guild I suppose.

Life is pretty sweet these days. I am liking my job. It has been about a month and things are going well. I am learning lots and getting more confident. I gave my first solo vaccines and the kid cried and  but it was good and I felt like a real life medical assistant. I'm a dumbass, I know, but still it felt good.

Linden got a full time job at Ajax bikes in C'dale. It is a bit more of an elitist a-hole shop, but if it'll help us pay the bills he'll do it until he can find something else. Plus he gets to ride 26 miles round trip to work and back. I know a lot of people wouldn't see that as a plus but....

Anywho, I should away and do something fun and/or constructive.

Adios.

BaLROG

2011-04-03T12:01:00.000-06:00
This morning it has rained, snowed and we had some thunder. . . it was a nice way to wake up. Now I need to do some house cleaning and have the place presentable for over night guests, Nick and his puppy, Haily. She is so incredibly cute and this will be the last time I see her or Nick for quite a while, me thinks. To Montana they go for big adventures.

I haven't posted anything since starting my new job. It has been three full weeks since I've been there. I have learned a lot, including how to vaccinate children. . . I think blood draws will be next. It is interesting and overwhelming all at the same time.

My second day I watched a mole removal and it went okay until the end. Then I got lightheaded and my hands got cold and I quietly but quickly left the room. It was kind of surreal watching the Dr. pull the mole around with tweezers like it was a tick that needed to be done with. The blood at the end is what got me I think. It is a field where I know I can find work anywhere I go. I'm into it but it is still so much to learn and remember. I just have to tell myself once I have it it is mine. . . not to worry.

I am ready for the snow to go away and let Spring in. It was wonderfully nice yesterday and I even got sunburned on my chest where I didn't even think to put sunblock. Today it is snowing like a bleaotch. Oh well. No controlling the weather.

Anywho, I should motivate and get some stuff done.

Adios.

Warmth!

2011-03-12T11:27:00.000-07:00
I cannot believe how beautiful it is outside. Thursday was my last day of work, so yesteday I slept in and took the dogs on a long walk and enjoyed the day. Today seems to be a perfect follow up.

On Wednesday I played hooky from work and went skiing at Snowmass. I justified this in two ways. 1.) I had two PTO days left that I would not get paid for (I also found out that I would NOT be getting paid for my earned vacation time as I didn't use it in the calendar year I earned it....) and 2.) My mom said it was okay to do so. :)   It was really good day and I ended up being uber tuckered out.

Today I'm also going to scout out the best route to my new job. It is just over a mile to work and I'm thinking bike pathing it until Safeway and then cutting over. We shall see though.

Last night we were watching Fringe and this guy injects another guy with something. I cringed and then had to laugh at myself because fairly soon I'll be doing that to people. I don't mind getting shots o giving blood. I think like any other job it will just become a task.

Anywho, for now I shall away!

The Maroon Bells as seen from Snowmass

Tire-ed

2011-03-02T15:48:00.000-07:00

Last night an uber drunk acquaintance stayed the night at our house. He drooled on the couch leaving marks and snored more loudly than I thought was humanly possible. I also thought he had peed on the floor, but turns out it was just spilled water (thank goodness!).

I'm tired today and I haven't done a thing. Like, not one. I discovered a new website that cracked my ass off: Damn You Auto Correct!    But really, you should check it out.

Other than that I've just been goofing off really. When the boss is out of the office on a Hawaiian vaca and you've finished all he's given you to do....what then? Facebook, that's what. I can't say I don't have short-timers either, because I totally do.

I need to get (not be) scrubs and some nice comfy shoes that don't stink like my comfy shoes do. Target and/or Wal-Mart, here I come! It will be cool to have a short bike commute to work and good for me at that. I am ready to get onto the next chapter.

That reminds me, I need to finish the Deathly Hallows again.

Resignation

2011-02-28T08:51:00.000-07:00
I gave notice at two places last week: my job and derby.

I am sad about derby but really it has been a huge weight off my shoulders! I feel so much lighter and stress free.

I did get the job as a medical assistant and will start training March 14th. I'm excited for this new chapter. This is unlike anything I've ever done, so I'm hoping it is the thing I am good at and passionate about!

Yesterday I skied for the first time in like a month and it was a good day. I really enjoyed it.

Um, yeah. That is all for my wee update.

Later.

Que Bueno

2011-02-16T09:13:00.000-07:00

I'm sore. I was still sore from practice on Saturday, and then I went to practice last night. It is getting better though. It feels pretty good except for the painfulness.

We have acquired a new player who is a world of information for us. She played in AZ and can skate like the dickens and knows how to teach us....this is wonderful and I am uber appreciative of her joining our little group!

I'm learning how to skate and I'm learning skates. There are parts and functions to these four wheeled shoes that are just amazing! I loosened up my trucks and was just astounded at how much easier turning and skating backwards was. . . toe stop adjustment worked wonders.

LC and I will be going out for a late V day dinner. We waited until all you can eat crab night at a local restaurant. I'm so excited! You have no idea how much I love crab. It will be nice to step out with my hair man and have some good food and drinks. Lately I've been dog sitting the neighbor's three dogs and it has been a hand full. Only once before have I slept in the same place but NOT in the same bed as LC. This week I did it twice because I had to watch these dogs and make sure they behaved. It wasn't the end of the world, it was just annoying. We're looking forward to laying next to each other tonight and not having to worry about barking dogs. Enough of the sap.

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Winter Storm

2011-02-08T09:19:00.001-07:00

Turon! (Please note the broom comb on the helmet, the ski sword, the weirdo wielding both)
We've finally gotten a winter storm as predicted on the news. LC and I went to the Bayou to get some signatures on some derby paperwork and had a couple drinks and some fries. We walked home and there was not a flake in the sky. It had been snowing all day but I just figured it was over.

An hour later and a cigarette called my name and I go outside to a few new inches of snow and a big glowy snow-world around me. It didn't fall like that all night, but it was fun going down with the dogs and taking some shovels and doing our walk, and the neighbors, and the other neighbors.

Winter is beginning to wear on me a bit. I am more for bikes I think, which is silly since I am no good at bikes. I'm fairly okay at skiing.

The idea of moving to Durango has sort of popped into my head. My sister and her family is there, rent is cheap, I could find a job and then when the parents go to Durango, they could see all of us. It seems like a fun mountain town, there is the college there and breweries and a ski area and it is ah hour away from Farmington (I don't know why I say this like it is a good thing.) I am sort of playing with this thought. The funny part is the thing that got me thinking about it is that I could play derby (try out anywho) and not have to be too involved in the "establishment."

I've mentioned it to my sister, who got excited. She mentioned it to her husband, who got excited, as did my mom.

We shall see. It isn't like we have jobs that we're staying here for. I mean, come on. And Linden LOVES the San Juans and there is a huge bike scene there. The ball feels like it is rolling down a snowy hill and getting bigger. . .

Going the distance

2011-02-06T13:10:00.000-07:00
Bwaaa. My shoulders are sore and my arms are shaking. I worked at the mountain for an event yesterday and moved a bunch of tables. I skied a bit too. But my shoulders are definitely feeling it. I also decided today would be a good day to start working out at home again and walking planks have my arms in a tizzy.

I've been slacking an awful lot lately and now with derby back in swing I really need to get on it. I'm not too pleased with how my body has been looking lately. I'd say I've gained about 10 pounds since this time last year and I can see it and feel it. Especially noticeable when I put on my swim suit last week :C

Only one thing to do then, watch it and work it. . .

Workout with Jillian today, a derby workout tomorrow at lunch, Tuesday Practice and so forth and so on.

I leave you with a sign of things to come. This was the result of a nasty spill I took skiing two weeks ago. Fairly early on still, it got darker and larger. Imagine what awaits from a hardwood/concrete floor?

left hip

Loves doin' nothing

2011-01-30T17:57:00.000-07:00
Super lazy weekend which included a lot of wii Zelda game play.

Last week was weird. I was on the cusp of dropping derby for the time being: Too much commitment monetarily and time wise is how I was feeling. I've thought it through though and will be staying with the team and on board as a board member.

Our first practice in ages in on Tuesday. I finally get to use my new skates!

On Friday I was reprimanded at work and then we were told we'd be having a meeting on Monday regarding "procedures and cooperation."   Feeling this is aimed directly at me since this is what I got in trouble for, "being short with my co-workers when they ask me to do something." I'm fine with helping, but one woman in particlar keeps dumping her shit work on me and I find it highly annoying. . . I've been told to just smile and do it. Direct quote there too.

Funny we'll have a meeting regarding this but it is all silence when we're told that our PTO time is being cut and that we may not actually get paid when we're supposed to.

I will hopefully have an interview for a job next week. I've got my fingers crossed.

So cold

2011-01-20T13:20:00.000-07:00
I'm enjoying winter but really thinking warmth and bikes right now. I saw some body armor I'd like to get from Demon Dirt. Click here to see it. I'm sure once I get up to the mountain this weekend all will be well. LC is up there today having a great time I am sure. . . he sure is spoiled, but I love him. Been riding my bike quite a bit even in this wintry wonderland. Oh, Xtra, how I love thee.

My throat is getting scratchy and I was hacking around all morning. Think I may be getting sick, which isn't cool at all.

The job situation is very blargity right now. They're micromanaging our time in an effort to figure out who they can get rid of. At least, I'm fairly certain of this. It really isn't good for morale and as my co-worker said last night regarding this morning: "See you in hell." That really is what it feels like. The options are few and far between and an early hopeful position never materialized.

So I'm just hanging out until I 1.) Get another job 2.) Get fired or 3.) Um, some other option I'm aware of.

Anywho, been doofing around on DA a bit.

I'm out.

Yarp

2011-01-17T09:41:00.003-07:00
Pretty much more of the same.

UPDATE:
So we've signed the lease at Rosie's place and practices should start up again February 1, 2011. Yay for derby. Last night's CSI: Miami was derby based too. SOOOO mainstream!   I've decided on a new name: Joke-Her.

Anywho, not feeling well today. Just wanting to get through the work day but have to rally since some friends will be in town tonight.

All I wanna do is sleep.

Tuesday Betta

2011-01-04T10:02:00.000-07:00

Practice at the Rec Center. This rink is currently covered in ice for hockey.
Hopefully we'll be hosting some bouts here come summer!

Okay, okay. The meeting with Rosie, the rink owner, is a go. Now, what time is it at? Lol. I have to take some time off work and I'm wondering how best to do this.....hmmm. I may just take the whole day and say screw it. It will work out just fine and hopefully by the end we can get some damn insurance and start skating again! I may have my eye on some workout space more closely located to my home that would work for off skate workouts and general use.

We will wee. I mean, see.

I'm excited to get this ball rolling again!

In other news, um. Not a whole lot going on. Linden and I are having a good time just hanging out together and loving life. A new season of The Biggest Loser starts tonight so I'll be heading to Besty's house for that and taking my big black and white dog with me. The dogs haven't been getting all the attention they need lately. I need to remedy this. . .

Sunlight Mountain wants a new mascot and whoever comes up with the winning idea and concept will get a free pass for next year. . . I've been wracking my brains (or is it racking?). Anywho, I was thinking a whistle pig (marmot), cowboy or miner. I've got until the 7th to figure it out, and then I would have to present it to a voting crowd. I just think it would be cool to say "that was my idea." Here is the link: Mascot Contest
I do also like that they are doing a skier appreciation day, a discount for car-poolers and free lessons.

Sunlight Mountain is the coolest mountain around. Just ask anyone.

Day two with no cigarettes. Feeling pretty good, pretty good!
Okay, I'm off to work now. . .update to come on rinkage!

I feel like a prize pony!

2011-01-03T09:06:00.000-07:00

We got a ski in/ ski out condo. And it was so damn cold I didn't do either. In fact, I didn't ski at all this weekend but was at Sunlight Mountain the whole damn time.

Oh, Irony.

It was a very good New Year ring-in. Brettleberg Condo fun which included massive amounts of arty-spinach dip, PBR and a pissy bartender who seemed to get more and more angry with each drink ordered. . . it was awesome.

I met some nice folks and popped some balloons. There were pictures and Cindy Lauper.

All in all, I'm ready for this new year to get started and on its way.

Today we will see if we get paid. I was told we would, but I have my doubts. You can't be 8k short, cancel a 1.5k depo and say everything is fine and dandy.   It just don't make sense.

The meeting with the rink owner seems to be falling apart and right now I just can't give a shit. I'm not going to worry about this stuff until someone else does too :) If I can't derby, I can still skate and I can go off on my bike and have some fun.

I bought a hat very much like this one:
Mad Bomber , only mine is purple (and I've always wanted an aviator hat). I like it. It is the warmest hat I've ever had. It has real rabbit fur and was made in China. So this sort of bothers me as I think of how they were skinned and I'm not okay with that. . . but damn I'm warm!

Anywho, I should away and get on with my day!

Happy Monday and 2011, y'all.

O_o

2010-12-30T09:52:00.000-07:00
Meeting is set to meet with rink owner. I think we are VERY close to FINALLY having some skating SPACE! This makes me happy and it could be done fairly soon. Keep your fingers crossed for me.

I'm tired as I haven't slept very well the last four nights or so. Not sure what that is about but....hopefully I'll catch up over the weekend. HA!

NY is Coming

2010-12-29T16:36:00.000-07:00
So glad. Found out I have Friday off. Weeee for me. Time to go ski!

Anywho, I am exhausted right now. Like, extremely. I could fall asleep at my desk but I figured I'd better look busy-ish instead so here I be.

Feeling the new year looming and wondering if I'll get to the things I want to and never get to. Like writing and reading and doing more artsy things.   We shall see.

Friday will involve going to Sunlight mountain where a friend has procured with money a condo that sleeps seven. We will go up and ski and drink beers and sit in the hit tub and sleep. I'm fairly excited for this plan to unfold fully.

Home is Where I'm Alone With You

2010-12-16T08:45:00.000-07:00
It is Thursday, almost Friday. Thank the guards!

Anywho, I noticed I blogged quite a bit less this year. Does that make me a bad person?   I almost have my christmas shopping done. Only four more people to get gifts for. I get paid on Monday too so that will help in the endeavor.

I'm still not sure if we get Christmas Eve off of work either. I asked yesterday and was told that the answer to that question was unattainable at that minute.

I hope they figure it out soon so I can plan accordingly.
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So there were a couple cool websites I found last week while I was hard at work.

The first one caught my interest because it could be uber useful when Linden and I tour.
WWoof. Basically you become a member and they give you a directory to organic farms nationwide that will trade food and boarding for volunteer work on their farm. There is no money involved, just trading of work for food and a place to stay...and a little gained knowledge. I thought this was really awesome and hope to be able to use this resource when we hit the road. It reminded me a bit of Warm Showers.

The other site I saw that I really liked was Tumbleweed Houses. I could totally dig the tiny house movement. The 361 sq ft option would be best me thinks, and hard to do with two dogs, a cat and 9 bikes, but it is totally do-able. Especially if you have a little chunk of land and a storage shed. . . .

The idea of minimalistic living is very appealing to me. Like I've said before, I think I'm the only person that would move into a yurt after winning the lottery.

Okey Dokey, I'm gonna buckle down and get to work.

Soar

2010-12-08T09:07:00.000-07:00
My butt. It hurts a bit.
Last night I got together with some of the RFRD girls and we did a workout and threw out some team name ideas.

My favorites were: Altitude Sickness (my suggestion), Miner Threat and Down Valley Trash. The team will be voting and that will be that.

The workout was good. It is a derby specific workout http://www.rollerderbyworkout.com/
I liked it.

I was pleased that we had 10 girls there. It was nice seeing everyone and I think it is very important to keep the team ideal alive: keep meeting and doing team oriented things whilst in this time o' transition.

Um, yeah. Beyond this, not a whole lot going on. Work is work, life is good.

Now if it would just snow some more life would be awesome.

Anywho....

Bloops

2010-12-06T10:05:00.000-07:00
It is Monday. I am at work.

Some guy came into the office. He was pretty huge. He mentioned something about gunpowder and Vivi came to my rescue.

The guy left and she asked me if I was ever scared of the guy at any point during his visit. I wasn't. Mostly he was annoying. He told me about how he lives in a cave and hasn't eaten in three days. He can't see well and could we please help him set up his tracfone?

Vivi gave him a few bucks for food (because she is nice like that) and I tried to get his phone running. About 15 minutes later I couldn't get the damn thing going, he couldn't figure it out and I politely told him he needed to get some assistance elsewhere so I could continue working.

Beyond that the day has been pretty boring.

Yesterday my sister told me that she got my family tickets to the Bronco game for December 26th. I'm pretty stoked, even though the Broncos are sucking major ass this year. I've never been to a pro game before so it should be fun. Even Linden is excited, and he doesn't even like football much.

Yeah, that is about it.

Adios.

Moanday

2010-11-29T12:11:00.000-07:00

This weekend was good. We went to the Folks house on Friday. Thursday Linden and I went to Sunlight and I got my first ski runs of the year. It was really nice and though we missed actual Thanksgiving Day with the family, I had a lot of fun at the mountain. It was like I hadn't been off skis at all.

Then we made the drive to Evans and ate some leftover goodness and watched movies, played board games and drank beer. I look forward to going back in December for Christmas.

Keeping my options open as far as employment goes....again. Or is it "still"? Payroll is getting a little iffy at my current position. Twice in a month we've been told we weren't going to get paid when scheduled due to lack of available funds. That doesn't make me feel very secure. I have inquired on a couple different positions. One is in Carbondale and I think I would really enjoy it. We'll see how it turns out, but keep your fingers crossed!

Um, other than that, not too much going on really. Christmas is coming quickly and I'm trying to figure gifts for everyone. Linden has to work at the mountain on the 26th so it will be a quick jaunt to the plains and back again.

Yeah, for now I think that is it. Boring life stuff is all!

Adios.

Snow is here, have no fear

2010-11-23T09:07:00.004-07:00
Sunlight mountain will be open for Thanksgiving for the first time since 2002. It is amazing how much fluff they got up there when we haven't had much here in town. I guess that way we get the best of both worlds!

Got some life stuff to figure out. . . twice in the last month or so on payday I've been told that we aren't getting paid. Twice. I've gotten my paycheck on both of those days and deposited them and everything was fine, but talk about scaring the bejesus out of Danyelle.

I am looking for something else but I just don't know what to do. I have my eyes on one position but it is only 30 hours a week and includes Saturdays and Sundays. I wouldn't mind this in the winter (except that I wouldn't be able to host and get my free pass) but in the summer when we will hopefully be bouting with Derby and Linden will be going to races and stuff. . . .I just don't know. I really don't want to miss on the derby fun that I am trying to help establish. I mean, that would suck! Doing the work but not being able to play? I don't think so, Ricky.

BUT, then there is the whole issue of being able to pay the bills and stuff and NOT be worried that you're just not going to get paid. My fear is that I'll just be let go some random day. . . it's happened before.

Stupid life, being all life-like.

I am confident that everything will work out though. It has up until now and I really have started to feel like things happen for a reason.

Anywho, I am off to the races.

Adios.

(and by the way, the soup was delicious.)

Foodage

2010-11-20T18:03:00.005-07:00
I am making French Onion Soup. It smells really good and I can't wait to melt that yummo cheese on top! The broth isn't as beefy as I'd like, but I'll keep that in mind for my next batch, which my mom has requested I make over the Thanksgiving Day holiday. I thought I'd test it out since I haven't made it in, oh, at least 7 years.

I'm looking forward to the buffet of goodness that is my mother's cooking! It is always a good time there.

We're supposed to get a butt load of snow this weekend. I'm hoping the roads stay good enough for us to get to my parent's house okay. The dogs will be coming with us, Betsy will be watching sir Larry Joe. It will be a nice long weekend full of family, beer and food.

Linden has a part time job at Sunlight for the winter. I am hoping we can still go to my parent's for Christmas too. Linden may have to work, but my sister and her family will be at my folks so it would be nice to see them. It has been a year after all. Emma is turning 6 this upcoming week. How time flies.

Yes, this is about all that is going on in my life right now: food and work. Some derby mixed in. Things are progressing with that too. I'm thinking a solid practice spot may be forthcoming in the near future. At least I am hoping like the dickens it is!

For now though, I shall away!

Eye Booger

2010-11-13T10:36:00.002-07:00
The husband is out of town until Monday on a last chance bike and camp extravaganza. I prefer warm beds to 30 degree camping, so I've stayed home.

Today's plan? Clean apartment a bit, swap my fenders from my World Sport to my Bob Jackson. . . and other than that, it is pretty much up in the air. I may watch online episodes of Ghost Hunters or Paranormal State as well. I love that shit.

There is a paranormal society in Grand Junction. I've emailed the woman a few times and was interested in taking a seminar (it was only like $15 so I figured if it was a shit show I'd not be losing much) but then it go canceled and they've not rescheduled it.

I'd like to get some books by Loyd Auerbach, just for fun. The idea of it all is very interesting and
I can say, living in a house built in 1886 that I think I've experienced some "funny" stuff here. Boxes flying across the room of their own accord, cat toys bouncing around with not furry foot near by. To read on a theory as to why and how this stuff works would be fun.

I just find it interesting. I read Mary Roach's Spook a few years back and found it informative and a good read. Yay for ectoplasm.

I am of the mind though that if it is a possibility a spectre didn't move something, that most likely it was the wind, then it was the wind. I freak myself out occasionally and every creak and pop is something scary...and then I remember that my dogs and cat are running around, that more likely than not, I'm just doing it to my self.

But I still find it fascinating.

Okay, on to the show. Adios.

Dude!

2010-10-28T10:09:00.003-06:00

These are my new skates, but mine have the pink flat out wheel. Sooooo sweet! Derby is just busy, busy. Course we aren't skating but we're trying to organize, find space to skate in, learn the rules, and go to Denver and see a Bout in November. It is a good deal: $27 for the party bus and that includes admission to the Bout, the bus ride with free PBR there and back and then admission to the after-bout party at the Skylark. It is gonna be a fun night!

The snow and cold have arrived. I am not really ready for it. Skiing will be fun, but it is still a while away. I'll get used to it, I'm just not as of now.

Um, that is pretty much all for right now. I'll update more when I am not at work!

Raining

2010-10-24T21:51:00.002-06:00
It has rained all weekend. . . nothing you can do with that so I've been inside watching football and drinking beer.

I did get my new skates, which totally kick ass. If only I had a place to skate! We'd better get our shit together! It is tough trying to find a place big enough that isn't a shit ton of rent. . . working on it though. My skates are incredibly more better than I have had. I am so eager to get out on them. The pads showed up the same day and I am just STOKED. Impotent feeling having what I need and no where to play :(

All is well in the world though. Working away at the law firm, hanging out, being broke. All the good stuff. I won a free tattoo...sadly enough I couldn't afford to drive to go get it! Tough decision, tattoo or food? I had to make the right one though. Dammit.

Burn down

2010-10-17T12:27:00.002-06:00
It is 12:27 on Sunday afternoon and I am still in my robe.

Last night was a party/meeting for Derby. We're slowly but surely getting our shit together. I am the VP Internal for the league. Been researching insurance options and rentals spaces. . . .it is serious business, this derby. That is one thing I was never into. I didn't start a derby league cause I didn't want to be involved in all the logistics of it. At least they know I didn't want to, but I'm still doing a good job.

I ordered my new skates too and they should be here shortly. Excited to get them and see what real skates feel like. I know my current skates are crap and the bearings and just effed. We'll see how it goes

Feeling blah today though. I think cause it is Sunday and that just means Monday is looming around the corner with a nasty grin. Linden took off for a ride too so now I am alone with my blah.

Watched Adventureland the other night. Good movie.

fotoes

2010-09-23T22:24:00.003-06:00
derby legs

wee
oh, hai

mel and roro

sk8erson and safron

The Dog Days are Over

2010-09-22T00:10:00.003-06:00
The Team
Best Baby Shirt Ever
Defiance Sirens = rad

Young man homemade tattoos

Fifty pounds of iceonabike

Man: just working and derby. Working and derby.

It has been good though. Time flies.

We've been practicing and fundraising and thank all sortsa stuff Devour found a space for us to call home! Old skating rink in New Castle that everyone forgot. Actually, we'd heard about it but didn't know who to contact.

The local paper publishes a piece on the league and it sounds like the owner actually contacted us letting us know it was there. How fucking rad is that? There is some work to be done but....fuck yeah.

The fundraiser this past weekend was good good for money raising and beer drinking and too much smoking. Yes, counteractive to physical activity, but fun nonetheless.

Pedal, Pedal - skate, skate, skate

2010-09-11T14:34:00.002-06:00
Getting ready to bike to Carbondale for the Derby fundraiser. Nothing like biking 12 miles go get my legs ready for the 12 mile bike ride home - and Monday practice. Don't know what we're gonna do when we don't have a space to skate this winter. We're canvasing to find some sort of warehouse space or something. Hope we find one or we'll be skateless for the winter. I suppose then we just workout, raise money and prep for the spring.

Hoping for a good turn out at Dos Gringos. Then on the 18th is the BIG fundraiser with bands and beer and whatnots. . . It should be a good time.

Things have been going well. Not ready for the colors that are appearing in the hills, or the cool mornings, but what am I gonna do about it? Nothing, that's what.

Tomorrow I'm going to a pig roast, which should be fun. Hope to see some friends there.

Until later...for now.

Beautiful Amnesia

2010-09-02T22:35:00.003-06:00
Yes, fundraising fun happened. More pics to follow. Got some $$ and working on more. Skating and getting into shape though we don't really know what we're gonna do when they lay ice on our practice area in October......

So far the chicks have been the shit and I can see them all as friends. Linden is convinced it is all a lesibian trap. Lol. Gawd he makes me laugh.

Life seems very autmn-y right now...this I like and don't. Just happy to be alive I spose!

Muah!

Hey, that's me!

Erica is the shiz

LC and Me!

A league diva

Weeee

Fuck. Ass.

2010-08-28T00:46:00.002-06:00
What a bummer. . . really. Had a good night planned and instead it just fucking slumped.
Lame. Nothing panned out. . . mostly me sitting and waiting for something that was never gonna happen.
Lame.
Lame. Lame.
Lame. Lame. Lame.

Not too stoke on it at all.

Hopefully tomorrow night is MUCH better. Fundraiser for the Roaring Fork Roller Girls. Yours truely, Dany Darko, will be there bringing schwag for the silent auction and probably drinkin' more than she should. Thanks to the Gear Exchange for all the goodies they donated for our cause. . .

Feeling like shit right now so I'm gonna go smoke and drink (some water) and hopefully wake up in a less pissy and down trodden mood.

Prep

2010-08-08T13:33:00.003-06:00
The husband is still asleep at 1:32 pm. A long night of sleeping on the ground in the rain in Keystone did him in. He showed up at 9:30 after a two hour drive and little sleep. . . awwww.

Preparing for my second derby practice tomorrow. Had a real good time at the first one! Friendly ladies of the league welcomed me with open arms, so that was nice. I've got all the gear I need, save for write pads, which I ordered yesterday. I'll probably upgrade to some Riedell skates soon. My $50 Cobras from a few years back won't cut the mustard for very long. Better pads too once I have time to save some money.

The league needs a place to practice in the winter months since the rink we're using now will be covered in ice in October for hockey season....this is a big To Do item. Hmmmm.

Anywho, I've got to go get some shopping done. Have a good Sunday, y'all.

Life's like a jump rope

2010-07-25T10:18:00.005-06:00
First, some photos....
my left leg got pedal bonked, see the bump?

trying to fix the flat, Sopris in the background

my new ride!

So the house thing fell through. I had a feeling that morning and told Linden I thought the guy was going to back out. I'm so smart.

The receptionist a work got fired. Not enough money to go around. This scares me, despite being told my job is secure. The law firm I used to work for just went to 4 day work weeks. Shit is hard for everyone, I spose.

Last night LC and I left for Carbondale, a twelve mile ride, to go to Mountain Fair. Good old hippy fun in a small mountain town. I've only been once to watch some bike polo. Last night we were going to party. LC's bike got a flat and he tried to patch it thrice, but it didn't take. We had to turn back and walk the five miles we'd just come. Thank gods McDonalds was still open when we got to town.

Despite not getting to our intended destination, I still had a good time. LC is fun to be around. It was also my first ride on bike #4: my Bob Jackson that is beautiful, thanks to my hubby. Super solid ride too.

OH! Found out there is a roller derby league in town! I'll be going to a practice tomorrow and meet some of the ladies and see if it is something I'd dig....which I think I will. I've wanted to try derby for a while, but you can't do it alone. I've not skated in years....like 20 years. This should be interesting. I'll keep you updated.

For now,coffee and some breakfast action!

Sunday blues

2010-07-18T19:59:00.002-06:00
Stupid hangovers ruining my Sunday. . . .that and the fact that is was 3 Million degrees outside. We were going to ride our bikes to the Meadows where I would get a trim, check out the Target action and get some ice cream. I was pretty sure though, that if we rode the bikes I would puke on the way over. We drove instead.

It was a nice-ish lazy Sunday. I just wish that I'd felt better.

Tomorrow is payday = Tuesday go sign a lease on the new place and hand over the deposit. I am so excited, it isn't even funny. It is a two bedroom house with a den/library. Hardwood floors, fenced backyard, garage, dishwasher (which I've been without for 6 years) and a bathtub! I am excited and we should be moving September 1st. Once we sign the lease I will give notice to the landlords here. . . .I am just waiting to get that done and over with.

I've already started going through some stuff and getting rid of the excess and trash. AHHHHH it will be so nice to be out of here!

Anywho, that is all I have for now. I'm going to go sit in front of a fan . . . . .

Long time, no blog

2010-07-15T13:04:00.002-06:00
I've been busy I guess. Or at least tired and lazy. :)

The summer is trucking right along and keeping hot during the day.

LC and I have found a new place to live and move in September 1st. I am so excited. It is a two bedroom house by the high school. It has a fenced in yard for the dogs and is just cute as a button! I can't wait to get the process over and just be moved in.

Moving is one of my least favorite things. Mayhaps this is why we've lived in this tiny stupid apartment for 6 years......

Anywho, I am on lunch and you know how that goes. I'm out.

I'm at a loss

2010-06-26T15:10:00.004-06:00

So beginning in about December of 2009 it started. I'm think about once a month since then I've been bitten by some horrible asshole being and I am really getting tired of it.

I have searched my house, looked high and low to determine where and what this thing is. I've looked into bedbugs and other options. Maybe it is hives? Some allergic reaction to my detergent? I don't think so. But I don't know.

Right now I have three large red bumps on my back that itch like a bitch. They get large and will be around for about a week or so. After a day or two a little blister will form on the top on the bite site.

I'm really not sure what I can do about this to make it stop.

The thing that really gets me is, well, there are a few things. 1.) Linden hasn't had any experiences like this. I don't know why I keep getting bitten and he doesn't 2.) I never feel the bite. I just turn around and BAM, there is another one.

Highly fucking annoying.
This was the first one. I've had had at least five total bite instances with either one or more actually bites. I'm over it.

Any suggestions before my kidneys fails due to toxic overload? Lol.

Weekend adventures . . .

2010-06-20T11:37:00.006-06:00
This week is the weekend of Strawberry days, Glenwood Springs annual festival. It happens to coincide with Glenwood's 125th birthday so that was the theme.

Yesterday was spent at the parade and then at Betsy's house relaxing and bullshitting. We walked around and looked at all the vendors. We saw some neat things (check ecosofhawaii.com) .

Lazy night.

Today has been an exciting one already. House cleaning involved and a near disaster. I cleaned the kitchen a bit and thought I smelled something funny. I thought maybe the neighbors were cooking something weird but the smell kept getting worse.

I notice the oven light is on, I'd accidentally knocked the knob to on while cleaning. SHIT! I knew the plastic colander was in there. . .
Here is what is left:

I've moved it to cool on the porch and hopefully avoided all toxic emanations from the plastic and non-stick surfaces involved.

Making sun tea and enjoying the pink flamingos. . .

Happy Sunday.

Para-pictures

2010-06-19T14:40:00.007-06:00

Mount Sopris in the background, Larry, Dion, Betsy and I at the jump spot.

It was pretty scary when they tell you to RUN and you just go for it. I knew I was yelling a lot, but I didn't think there any words. I watched the video I took and it turns out "holy shit!" was the most repeated sentiment.

Just a little further!

Airborne!

Grand Avenue and the Roaring Fork River below

Not so graceful landing.

It was a really awesome adventure. I'm glad I did it and would totally do it again. The adrenaline was rushing and the blood pumping. I focused and put my fear behind me. TRIUMPH!

Time goes on...

2010-06-13T15:00:00.004-06:00

I tried to upload the video of my paragliding adventure, but after about 20 minutes I called it quits and will figure something else out. It really was one of the neatest things ever and once I landed there was Linden with video camera in hand. I've also go a cd of pictures coming my way from the paragliding company so those should be up soon. It was very liberating and a bit scary but beautiful and adrenaline filled. . . I hope to go again some day soon.

The birds have left the nest and the weekend has been full of rain and chilly weather. It's been nice and lazy and chocolate chip cookies have been the hardest endeavor I've made all day long. :)

Just wanted to stop and say hello and let all my "readers" know stuff is happening, I am alive and will update soon.
P.S.:

Here is a pic of the babies a week and a half ago. There were 5 of them. They've gone now and I miss them but wish them luck in the bird world!

Danyelle's Hair Through the Ages

2010-06-03T20:32:00.004-06:00
So, this is sorta for DJ, showing the hair adventure I've been on for a while now. The top photo is the most recent. The bottom one, is the one from long ago high school days. All the others are in between somewhere.

Typically I do a middle part but was playing with a side part. I think I look a little like:

Anywho, there it is. My hair is the longest it has been in at least 10 years.....and I want to cut it off. . . I want to make it longer.

Stupid hair.

Good Times

2010-06-02T23:08:00.003-06:00
Second try:

I tried to do this earlier but it just didn't work...fucker.

Anywho, life is pretty damn swell right now.

In news related to my last post - the bird died. I like to think it was a peaceful experience in the oasis I created in a cat crate with food, water, branch and some lilacs.

The birds on the porch are also proud parents of some fledglings. I am keeping and eye on them and they seem to be doing fine.

In non-avian news, life is the shit.

I got a job as a receptionist and was soon told I was overqualified and offered a raise and a promotion to paralegal in the medical department of the small firm.

The work is interesting and engaging and I feel like I'm DOING something. I enjoy it and am feeling a confidence that hasn't been there in a while. I think it is the product of undertaking a small but detailed project on my own and doing a damn good job...

Go me! Th irony is that years ago I took a temp job at an insurance agency that was quite similar. The first two months of that job were HELL but by the 6th month I really got into it...and then the job was terminated and I went on my merry way.

One more lesson about how where you want to be might not be where you are, but could come in handy in the future. The shit-at-beginning job is proving priceless right now.

In another note of personal achievement, I rode my bike further and over a mountain pass this past weekend. LC and I took off from the house and rode over Cottonwood Pass to Gypsum, Colorado, and back home along the bike trail along I-70.

The most I've ridden my bike in recent months is 4 miles round trip. To do 60 in 24 hours just goes to show I can do anything I want. Touring the nation became a lot more realistic in my little mind.

It was fun and hard. I was challenged in a new way and did it...and I didn't cry. Well, not much anyway. I felt like I was holding LC back, it being he's ridden 70 miles in a day, but he said he enjoyed the pace. The point of touring is you have no time limit and can enjoy where you are. I completely agree.

It was an awesome trip and can't wait to do more.

Basically in the past two weeks I've found myself feeling very good...and that is...good. Things are falling into place and I dig that.

The Bird Whisperer

2010-05-22T11:12:00.001-06:00
I'm not one but pretend to be.

Linden and I wrangled an injured finch this morning from the front yard. It took a while, but we got it. She is now in a cat carrier with food and water, a twig and some lilacs. I don't know how long she will last. She doesn't seem too good, but I'm hoping.

At first I was afraid it was the mama bird from the porch nest, but I've seen her since the chase down. Really it was slow and calm, we didn't want to make the poor thing feel worse. A friend said I can contact the DOW and find out about any local bird rehabilitators. We shall see how she does here first.

I am supposed to go play some volleyball today but the wind is counter productive to that...bastards.

So until then, I'm doing dishes, blogging and gonna vacuum.

If it aint got rhythm, lawd it aint got soul.

2010-05-13T22:56:00.001-06:00
It is Thursday. Fourth day of new job. New job is good.

I am working at a local law firm as receptionist/legal secretary. Awesome. Weekends off. All is well in the world. Yes, I will miss three days off a week but I will welcome the money and being able to spend time with LC during normal hours. Not being awake until 2 am is good each night is good for me, I think,

The spa took it well. I offered a weeks notice. They took it until they found someone else to fill the position. It worked out well for everyone.

I asked and they will let me come to the sweats still :)

Last week I took part in a Ute sweat ceremony in the caves. It was really meaningful, I think. I'll describe more later. Right now I am cold and ready for some bed-age.

To bed. . . good night.

I used to do speed. You know, and just a little cough syrup? I'd stay up all night just writing and writing...just to fucking write.

2010-05-06T23:42:00.007-06:00
"Who are you to shake your finger?"

I am just sitting at the house alone listening to music.

It reminds me of youth when I would sit in my room alone and just listen and write. This is something I don't think is really possible when home with others....or at least, I've not made it possible. Sitting alone in a room with my ear buds in just jammin' out and scrabbling shit on the page is something I need to get back into.

Sure I might not get famous, but it will be good for me.

And I assure you, no one has ever heard the best guitar player play. He just sits in his basement playing for the love of it.....at least I sure hope he does.

"Oh it gets so lonely when you walking and the streets are full of strangers. All the news of home you read just gives you the blues."

Nights like this are few and far between. I love being in love and I love sharing my life with my love, but to be alone, that is origin, right? I feel like I spent a lot of time alone growing up. My friends are pretty few and far between. Mostly I think that a result I brought on myself....building up walls and not getting too close. But rarely do I let go and think and feel because I am with others and distracted or engaged in them.

This is something that needs to change. I think it will be a good thing for me...going back home every now and again.

"Where are we? What the hell is going on? The dust has only just begun to form crop circles in the carpet. Sinking feeling."

Broken spirit sort of lead to my no music listening and lack of writing. That and my broken car stereo. I've said before I also think that happiness leads to a lack of creative productivity. This in conjunction with being told no so many times....I lost the love for it...

Sometime I just look back and am amazed at how far I let myself fall. Totally fell asleep at the wheel. Ambition?

What dat? Sound despondent? I'm not unhappy...just sort of surprised at myself.

"Meet me in outer space. We could spend the night, watch the earth come up. I've grown tire of that place. Won't you come with me? We could start again."

I feel like my 30th year is a new start of sorts. My thinking is changing and reverting in ways. I know what I've done and I know what I like and what I don't. I've got expectations and newly found ideals. As Miss Penny Lane says, "It's all happening."

I know I'm full of sound bites and silly quotes. Mostly I build on other's ideas.

In the way of laziness you forget you're the only one who can do anything for you. I'm remembering that, you know, I steer the ship and I fell asleep and now I have to take myself in the direction I want. Unlike those on the Biggest Loser, I don't weight 300 pounds, but I am years away from where I want to be and all that I want to see in the world. Like those people trying to shed pounds, this won't be a quick endeavor but I'll slowly make my way in the direction that I see nowadays.

This is hope....though I am still doubtful and unsure. This is sort of my nature = strong frailty and shit. A walking dampened fire flower.

Lone Ranger

2010-05-06T10:07:00.002-06:00
Linden took off again for Fruita and the 18 Hour race they are putting on. He isn't racing but will be hanging out and cheering on Darin of Gear Exchange fame. Totally nuts. The weather is sort of crazy and Linden changed his original route but he should get to Brian's house in Clifton tonight and then head out on Friday to be in Fruita for the race that starts at Midnight.

At least, I believe that is the plan.

I've just been working and playing. Painting a bit too and too much Oncarina of Time on the N64. I want to head to the library tomorrow and get a book. We'll see what I find.

Anywho, that is about all I have for now. . .

Maycember

2010-05-02T13:59:00.004-06:00

Since this picture was taken on April 28th, the day after I got sunburned while taking the dogs up Red Mountain, it has been cold and snowy and rainy and I am over it.

I've got thick socks on and a sweater and I am making chili. I've also not ridden my bike in three days. . .

No bueno.

I go to work in two hours and I don't want to. The neighbors haven't turned the heat back on either. I am unmotivated and pissy...if you can't tell.

Beyond that all is well.

Concentri-Flash-back

2010-04-28T23:26:00.003-06:00
Today I found a moleskine which has a start date of 2005. I don't know the context of the quote, but found it amusing all the same:

"Danyelle's advice is probably best. Masturbate."
-Django Durango

HA HA!

2010-04-27T11:58:00.003-06:00
So I've found there is a way to prepare you canvas to minimize the texture. Thanks, YouTube!

That will be fun.

Today I am hanging out, waiting to see if the husband can accompany me on a trek up red mountain with the dogs. The work situation is weird. they've not had anything for him in some days and they are the type of people that won't tell you any bad news, they just sort of stop calling you, they phase you out. I wouldn't be surprised if they did this to him. But we shall see. I've go my fingers crossed that they keep him busy.

If not the forestry place called back and would like Linden to work, but it is hard work and long and we don't have insurance so I don't know how I feel about him working with heavy equipment and chainsaws and not having insurance......

Life, what fun, eh?

We'll see how everything goes......

anywho, I's off for now. Adios.

The good times are killing me.

2010-04-26T15:35:00.010-06:00

Bob Ross inspired........

For Jill......

I've been painting a bit the last few days. It was fun and cathartic, me thinks. I want to take some lessons at the art center here in town. This would help. The texture of the canvas is getting to me, but I shall over come. I've been practicing my creativity and have enjoyed it. I gotta keep it going. A family membership at the art center is pretty reasonable and I think Linden would take some classes with me.
He is a much more experienced artist.
It would be fun.

This summer I also want to sign up for the local organic farm's CSA. It is$40 a membership and then $30 a week for fresh organic produce that they deliver to town every Tuesday. Awesome to know where your food is coming from. They also sell eggs and I want to start getting those from Osage Gardens.

It is gonna be a rad summer.

Also, Pandora rocks. I don't know what "channel" Linden has it on but I'm loving it today.

55 Word Max

2010-04-25T00:12:00.003-06:00
My alma mater is hosting a 55 word max writing contest.
Here's what I've got:

Frank was a dirty pervert. Everyone who knew him knew his "allure".
When they found his teeth and toenails in a field, they weren't really surprised.
The CSI came and did their thing, narrowing down the suspects and reconstructing the bloody murder scene.
When they asked her if she'd killed him she said, "Frank who?"

Thursday morning

2010-04-22T12:13:00.002-06:00
I am slowly getting ready for work today. I've got two hours still, but I really should get moving.

The man of the house is out of town for a few nights. Yesterday he rode 78 miles, 25 of which were a hard climb. He crashed at Brian's house in Clifton and is resting today before heading out for the remainder of the ride on Friday.

I tried to call him this morning and my phone was coming up with some error. I started freaking out and hurried to the Verizon store. I've had good/bad luck with these phones and really didn't want the electrical box in my hand to have crashed making it impossible to communicate with my bike traveling hubby.

Turns out a station in CO is down and Verizon isn't working here and in parts of WY. That made me feel better. I also got an email from him and that made me breathe easier knowing he was okay and had slept well.

Last night was nice though. Evan, one of my longest friends, came over and we went out to dinner and hung out. We were uber close in high school and since then we've had our ups and downs, but it is nice having him here in town, having someone who knows exactly where you come from. . .

I've been trying my hand at creativity but it is hard. Evan and I were talking about how it seemed to come so much easier when we were angst ridden and angry teens. Now that a level of contentment has been reached, the flow has tapered off. Evan posited that a lot of the time the creativity is a way of working through the emotions of anger or sadness and are a tool of understanding.

I can dig that.

Anywho, I better get my ass moving. Happy Thursday!

Closet Cleaning

2010-04-20T11:44:00.003-06:00
Today I am tackling the bedroom. We have way too many clothes and I am going after the in earnest today. It is sort of daunting! I'll get through it though and all will be well.

I am amazed at all of the towels we have! I think most of them came from lost and found at the pool, but shit! Sho' is a lot of them!

This will open up our bedroom and closet and I NEED to de-clutter.

Linden is preparing to leave tomorrow and bike to the Rabbit Valley Rally which will take place on Saturday. Fruita is about 100 miles from Glenwood Springs. Rabbit Valley is a ways past Fruita. He should make it by Friday I think. He'll then catch a ride back on Sunday...then get a massage on Monday :)

I wish I could go, but I don't know if I'm up to a 100 mile ride just yet. Plus, I have to work. I'm going to miss him. Summers are hard on me because I miss so much of what he is doing. He is gone more often in the summer and it makes me sad. Oh well, it is what it is. It makes his homecomings wonderful.

Rabbit Valley is a fun race and I'm pretty sure I wrote about it last year too. I want to go down there some day when I'm not working and do a 2-3 day bike/camping trip.

Anywho, that is about all I have right now. Just chugging along on the bedroom.
Adios!

Bwaaaa

2010-04-13T14:26:00.002-06:00
This morning I got up earlier than I have in a long time. I went to the meeting and then worked until noon. I then got a massage.

I've gotten massages in the past but they were never that enjoyable. Today was a different story. I really enjoyed it and feel like jello. I am definitely ready for a nap!

I was always tense in massages before. The knowledge that some stranger was touching my naked body freaked me out. I'd forget to breathe. . . Today was good. I've become more comfortable in myself. I think this is why I was willing to stand naked in a European wrap session and not feel self conscious. I know I'm no beauty queen but I am comfortable in me and this is good. I also know my body is changing and anything is possible in that area.

Plus, these aestheticians and therapists are professional and I am sure my body isn't the worse they've ever seen. :)

Tomorrow is a no-work day so I want to do something fun or meaningful...maybe both. For now, though, I think I'm off to lay on a couch!

The L/C to my D/C

2010-04-12T14:25:00.005-06:00
Here are some of the reasons I love my husband:

1.) He is smart. I am always amazed at how I can ask some question about rocks or engines or history, and he will know the answer or have some insight into the topic. His mind is large and full of information.

2.) He has always let me be the weirdo that I am and has never made me feel bad about it. He embraces my uniqueness compliments it with his own.

3.) He pushes me to grow intellectually. He thinks of things in a different way and he challenges me to ask my self why and how I understand/believe in something.

4.) He pushes me physically. There is a reason I got to 190lbs in college. Linden has helped me find a healthier lifestyle and introduced me to biking and skiing and, by gods, it is fun doing these things with the man I love.

5.) He be sexy.

6.) He is the most fun. I have never met anyone else with such a good sense of humor. He makes me laugh each and everyday and we have a lot of fun. I love it.

7.) He picks up trash...Whenever we walk somewhere he is picking up paper or cans or wrappers. He has cleaned up the trash that has been left around our building several times...he is conscious that this is an issue and he can't fix the problem, but he can do his part. He rides his bike and works from it, he is an environmentally friendly person and I think that is wonderful.

8.) We don't want kids, but he is really good with little ones. He is kind and friendly and helpful with them and it is nice to see him be this way.

9.) He is a good son and brother.

10.) He is my best friend.

I was thinking of all of these things last night when I was trying to fall asleep and he was comfortably snoozing away next to me. There are a million more reasons why, but I just wanted to jot down a few.......

Chirp, Chirp

2010-04-09T13:25:00.001-06:00

Today is one of those days that makes it really hard to go to work. It should be a good night though, and Katie and Ashley are coming to Glenwood for a visit so it should be a good night. I went to lunch with Natalie, who has been a friend since we both worked at the Athletic Club in the days of Dick Screen (that is a person's name, by the way.)

All is well and I am feeling pretty dang good.

The sun is out and birds are singing. It finally feels like spring might be around for a while :)

New Day

2010-04-08T11:34:00.004-06:00
We are officially debt free. Well, there are a few debts still out, but all the credit cards and truck are DONE! It is a pretty neat feeling to know that we can spend our money in different ways and now we can save for our bike tour more easily.

Exciting!

Work today, but first cleaning and some small shopping and what not. We're dog sitting this weekend and may have a few house guests so this should be fun.

The sun has returned and the forecast for the week is a warm one. This makes me happy.

Things are really working out. I'm digging this whole three days off a week thing and it fits my personality better. I've been able to pick up some hours at work and my last paycheck was bigger than I expected "Oh yes," she says while stroking the cat perched on her lap, "It is all coming together so nicely."

Happy Thursday everyone!